I got to understand that there is a deliberate attack on my womanhood when I could not relate to what He was revealing to me!
For those who have written books before, you will appreciate the toll the research part takes on one, more so when the book is about your own transformation.
As I was busy penning down what my heart was telling me, His Spirit was guiding me down a path I never dared transverse, but something about it drew me in. By now, you know I am the questioning type- the why, how, etc., so I asked, "How am I am to do this woman-job? Is there like a job description or something?".
It's been a while since rain graced us up here, so as I worked on the laptop, finishing some writing, my son was watching his things and my daughter was sleeping as she was recovering from a flu, the rain was pouring down so loud that it was deafening and it somehow tripped the lights.
Instinctively I went for my chicks only to meet them in the passage running towards me! It was pitch dark and thundering. I scooped them both up and held them like I did when they were still a mere handful in size, when they were still helpless and depended on me for their existence, when they had no opinion on what I am doing! Now as they stood in the hallway, a bit shaken from the obvious scare, they needed me to shelter them and to make them feel safe, like only a mother could. I positioned us comfortably on the sofa as they clinged to me for dear life, but I could feel their breathing relaxing. They felt safe again as the thundering subsided. Taken up by the whole experience, I could not help but be thankful! I was so glad that I was home to speak to their shaken hearts! I was so content in knowing that I am their refuge somehow! Then, as I held them tight, without saying a single word, but comforting them with motherly assurance, I knew this is what I am to be to them- this moment alone defined motherhood to me. I suddenly had this epiphany that this is what it means to be feminine- something I possess enables me to be life to those around me. I am a woman.
Something about this experience revealed yet again His plan for the container I have been divinely placed in. Chapter 4 of my book speaks of this- now obviously the list is not exhaustive, but He came for my heart as He revealed what femininity was about. I marveled at how He parallels it to some of His functions!
I am a woman by design and He grafted His nature within me when He created me. When He said "let Us create them male and female", He said so intentionally. I was to function in this world, as a compliment to masculinity, and every other role of man, through my femininity! It was a powerful and fierce revelation.
I was robbing the world and the men God created of their masculinity when I remained ignorant of my divine design. I crumbled at this revelation and accepted and embraced His master plan. What I never bargained for was a commission to restore this picture! You know why- I never assumed that there was anyone else who consumed the same lies I did. Lies like "I can't be a mother. I just want to be human and not be classified by my container". The devil had blinded me to God's truth of divine design. I was lost. I was in a container which power I never comprehended. I was walking seeking to function with no specific description! I was blind, but He opened my eyes. He showed me His gift. It is so precious as it serves my family right now. I am deep in ministry! I prayed so deep for Him to show me more, draw me deeper.
I want to expose the lies of the enemy to His daughters, my daughter! It is to you I am yearning to be open to so that we regain and reclaim His design. It ends here! The devil is a liar. We will no longer walk blind, but wise to His truths. We are the King's daughters and we love being woman! Let us teach the next generation to appreciate being a woman before the enemy snatches this away from them. It is our responsibility. You do not choose what gender you ought to be, He gives it to you before you grace this planet. Women, we are failing Him if we are shying away from femininity. We are to claim this space and call every daughter of His to walk out His calling for their design! Let's join hands, daughters of the Most High. Let's make Him known, His plans and His designs.
As I was busy penning down what my heart was telling me, His Spirit was guiding me down a path I never dared transverse, but something about it drew me in. By now, you know I am the questioning type- the why, how, etc., so I asked, "How am I am to do this woman-job? Is there like a job description or something?".
It's been a while since rain graced us up here, so as I worked on the laptop, finishing some writing, my son was watching his things and my daughter was sleeping as she was recovering from a flu, the rain was pouring down so loud that it was deafening and it somehow tripped the lights.
Instinctively I went for my chicks only to meet them in the passage running towards me! It was pitch dark and thundering. I scooped them both up and held them like I did when they were still a mere handful in size, when they were still helpless and depended on me for their existence, when they had no opinion on what I am doing! Now as they stood in the hallway, a bit shaken from the obvious scare, they needed me to shelter them and to make them feel safe, like only a mother could. I positioned us comfortably on the sofa as they clinged to me for dear life, but I could feel their breathing relaxing. They felt safe again as the thundering subsided. Taken up by the whole experience, I could not help but be thankful! I was so glad that I was home to speak to their shaken hearts! I was so content in knowing that I am their refuge somehow! Then, as I held them tight, without saying a single word, but comforting them with motherly assurance, I knew this is what I am to be to them- this moment alone defined motherhood to me. I suddenly had this epiphany that this is what it means to be feminine- something I possess enables me to be life to those around me. I am a woman.
Something about this experience revealed yet again His plan for the container I have been divinely placed in. Chapter 4 of my book speaks of this- now obviously the list is not exhaustive, but He came for my heart as He revealed what femininity was about. I marveled at how He parallels it to some of His functions!
I am a woman by design and He grafted His nature within me when He created me. When He said "let Us create them male and female", He said so intentionally. I was to function in this world, as a compliment to masculinity, and every other role of man, through my femininity! It was a powerful and fierce revelation.
I was robbing the world and the men God created of their masculinity when I remained ignorant of my divine design. I crumbled at this revelation and accepted and embraced His master plan. What I never bargained for was a commission to restore this picture! You know why- I never assumed that there was anyone else who consumed the same lies I did. Lies like "I can't be a mother. I just want to be human and not be classified by my container". The devil had blinded me to God's truth of divine design. I was lost. I was in a container which power I never comprehended. I was walking seeking to function with no specific description! I was blind, but He opened my eyes. He showed me His gift. It is so precious as it serves my family right now. I am deep in ministry! I prayed so deep for Him to show me more, draw me deeper.
I want to expose the lies of the enemy to His daughters, my daughter! It is to you I am yearning to be open to so that we regain and reclaim His design. It ends here! The devil is a liar. We will no longer walk blind, but wise to His truths. We are the King's daughters and we love being woman! Let us teach the next generation to appreciate being a woman before the enemy snatches this away from them. It is our responsibility. You do not choose what gender you ought to be, He gives it to you before you grace this planet. Women, we are failing Him if we are shying away from femininity. We are to claim this space and call every daughter of His to walk out His calling for their design! Let's join hands, daughters of the Most High. Let's make Him known, His plans and His designs.